By Sarah Cook
“In that opening shot Gaga seems to literally become the screen – and, as the camera pulls back, what was once the screen is revealed to be the performer on the stage. This blurring between the screen itself and the performer on the stage suggests a kind of transgression of the screen.” ~Meghan Vicks, from her and Eddie McCaffray’s initial discussion of Gaga’s VMA performance
I want to start by agreeing with Meghan’s observation – in fact,
the longer the camera stayed right up against Gaga’s face, the more
uncomfortable I felt. Was it just me? I became incredibly anxious for the
camera to back away, and to see her body, the stage, the surroundings…
It didn’t help that MTV online was a bit tenuous throughout the
VMA airtime, taking forever to post each performance (which was supposed to
happen immediately after it occurred), and only offering a live-stream of alternative cameras: a couple backstage
views, a view of the audience, a few different rooms, etc. For me, this became
the most interesting part of the whole experience: I found myself anxiously
searching various online sites for a chance to live-stream Gaga’s performance,
and I clicked repeatedly through all the different live cameras that MTV
offered, trying to see which one was the most promising at any given moment. It
became a race to see Gaga live, or to at least figure out which source would
allow me to see her performance the soonest.
But here’s where it got especially weird: once Gaga started
performing and I had yet to find a live stream, I realized I could hear her
faintly in the background from these random MTV cameras. Each camera had a
slightly different volume of sound, but none of them were loud: so while the
visual cues were completely absent, the echo of “Applause” in the background told
me she was onstage at that moment. I clicked ever more rapidly to try and see
what I was only slightly able to hear. I clicked over to something called the
“Talent Lounge.” There, I saw a bar with the phrase “Good Vibrations” written
along the front. There were three small TV screens hung up in various corners
of the room – they looked about a half-inch big on my computer screen – setting
a kind of sports bar vibe. I was about to click onto a different camera when I
realized those three small TVs were all broadcasting Gaga’s performance: multiple
Gagas, and yet they were all so tiny! And so, my first taste of Gaga as Gaga as
Gaga was through computer through video through TV, all these layers of
technology that gave me what I desired only by lining up just so.


















